Who Does She Think She Is?
Have you ever felt the pain of someone saying "Who does she think she is?" or asking straight out "Who do you think you are?"
"I have a strong memory of the day I did.
A number of years ago I was one of the worship leaders at my church. It was my Sunday off and I was enjoying the worship time. I found myself on the floor before the Lord. I was weeping as he was touching my heart.
It was one of those intimate moments you cherish with the Him and you wish would never end.
Then... behind me I heard a woman's voice say "Who does she think she is?!
Instantly the moment of peace, love and affection with the Lord was snached from me. My heart was crushed. I was embarrassed and confused. I sat there until the pastor started to pray, then grabbed my things and slipped out the side door next to me.
My passion for worship was impacted that day. I never sang on a worship team again after that. It affected my ability to fully engage in worship for many years to follow. I would constantly be distracted by the thought of what someone near me might be saying.
My guess is that there are many of you out there that have a gifting, calling, ministry that God has placed on your heart but someone's words have pushed it down and robbed you of that passion that makes you willing to do it.
Are you like I was? Frozen from the fear that someone will say "who does she think she is"? Or maybe your question is "What gives her the authority, knowledge or expertise to talk about, teach or do that? "
I'll be honest with you that fear hindered me quite a bit. I, like many and maybe most am worried about what people will say or think. I let past painful experiences keep just enough of a grip on me that I didn't do all that I knew God had given me to do.
About 2 years ago I was going through a process with my coach, when the Lord showed me that he has called me to Equip World Changers. Women who want to change the world! Women who want to change Their World!
He told me... "many will be too afraid of drowning to stand up in the current and fight the tide".
When I asked him what that fear/tide looks like He said it looks like something in their past where they had no control and it was scary. The fear and pain was so great that they don't want to risk it again.
Spending time with him in Your Secret Place is where you will find healing, courage and strategies for moving forward.
So let me encourage you to STOP, grab your journal and take a few minutes to close your eyes and go to that place in your mind where you find Him. Invite Him to join you there.
Ask Holy Spirit what is keeping you from the purpose God has created you for.
If it's fear, what is it that you are so afraid of?
When he begins to show or tell you, Go Deeper. Ask questions and ask Him to reveal more.
For me fear came from what felt like rejection. So going deeper looked like asking when in my life was I rejected?
Remembering what that pain felt like and asking Holy Spirit to identify how to get on the other side of it.
Keep asking questions until you have a clear picture and a plan for moving forward so that nothing holds you back from All you're created to do. (And don't forget to write it all down!)
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